No, not for how you should feel on the matter and me. I'll let you do your thing, then.
But, before I go and unrelated to being for your consideration, you do need to understand one thing, if nothing else.
I can't help that you've been become important to me and neither can you. That means forgiving me or hating me or whatever doesn't change a single thing other than I have to go about my decisions a different way. For everything that's happened, it's not you that I don't trust. It's what your mother has done to you. So, it's why I can't say I was wrong or anything like that. Protecting you is more important to me than you liking me. Protecting you is also worth more lives than even your creation can take.
I'm not saying I won't upset or hurt you emotionally in the future-- it isn't anything anyone can guarantee, that's the nature of relationships. But, I'm not meant to be the one you perpetually adore or like here on this team that has never done anything to upset you. I'm meant to be the one that makes sure nothing happens to you so you can continue to be able to decide things like that with how people treat you, to begin with. That's what family is willing to do for each other.
Besides, I'm not really a person someone like you can like, anyway. So it might be easier on you to stop trying so hard to find reason for it and be fine with whatever you feel.
[ he isn't upset when he speaks, but it's difficult for him to say all the same. And while he isn't particularly upset by it, he also has no desire to hear a reactive response to it, so he will end the conversation there just as he said he would by terminating his connection. ]
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But, before I go and unrelated to being for your consideration, you do need to understand one thing, if nothing else.
I can't help that you've been become important to me and neither can you. That means forgiving me or hating me or whatever doesn't change a single thing other than I have to go about my decisions a different way. For everything that's happened, it's not you that I don't trust. It's what your mother has done to you. So, it's why I can't say I was wrong or anything like that. Protecting you is more important to me than you liking me. Protecting you is also worth more lives than even your creation can take.
I'm not saying I won't upset or hurt you emotionally in the future-- it isn't anything anyone can guarantee, that's the nature of relationships. But, I'm not meant to be the one you perpetually adore or like here on this team that has never done anything to upset you. I'm meant to be the one that makes sure nothing happens to you so you can continue to be able to decide things like that with how people treat you, to begin with. That's what family is willing to do for each other.
Besides, I'm not really a person someone like you can like, anyway. So it might be easier on you to stop trying so hard to find reason for it and be fine with whatever you feel.
[ he isn't upset when he speaks, but it's difficult for him to say all the same. And while he isn't particularly upset by it, he also has no desire to hear a reactive response to it, so he will end the conversation there just as he said he would by terminating his connection. ]