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video; maybe four or so hours after Matsunaga's post

[wardance]

Sieglinde, we need to talk.

[grunehexe]

[She didn't want to be accused of pettiness if she refused to reply in anything but text, so. Video it is, in her room with a book in her lap, and the best neutral expression she can muster.]

About what?

[wardance]

[ They need to talk about too much, perhaps. ]

That guy you spoke with on the network.

[grunehexe]

[Too much. But she didn't think he had called her to talk about what had happened before. She expected it to be about that man.]


I am listening.

[wardance]

Tread lightly. The less interesting you are to him, the better. ...And don't let him encircle you into defending me.

[grunehexe]

Why?

[Shes not in the mood for vague warnings without explanation, or for things being kept feel her "for her protection" or anything that reeked of that.]

[wardance]

Because he is the type of person that has nothing to lose and everything to gain. The only thing he likes more than physical treasures are the moments he can witness when they are taken. He will run you down into the ground and leave you as less than dust without ever laying a finger on you.

[ He can drive people over the top in a way no one else he has ever encountered has been able to. ]

[grunehexe]

[It doesn't really answer her question- not in the way she wanted. She wanted why the man would bother with her, bother with Masamune. What their actual connection was.

Instead she just waved a hand dismissively. Why did she expect any different-]

Considering he knows nothing about me or my world, I find it laughable he would be able to leave the Green Witch as dust. A wordsmith who fancies himself wise for being able to pull a narrow interpretation of a phrase and pass it off as revelation into a person is no concern of mine.

[Not like people who knew you could.]

[wardance]

Don't take him lightly. You are not mentally sound enough to protect your mind from him yet, especially with your trust issues.

[grunehexe]

- excuse me?

[Wrong thing to say. The book she had open in her lap closes immediately.]

Not mentally sound enough? My issues? I can handle myself perfectly well against a fork tongued man such as that, [when going in prepared, anyway], so unless you plan to tell him things I don't see what the problem could be in the slightest.

[wardance]

How?

[grunehexe]

How? Because in order to actually hurt someone you need to know them.

[So honestly she can't imagine how this stranger could offend her nearly as much as Masamune himself is right now.]

[wardance]

[ he looks a little... perplexed that she has such confidence on a simple premise. ] You don't think he can harm you by twisting things that surround you? About what others are or are not intending when interacting with you?

[grunehexe]

I frankly care not for such petty things. I know what I feel about the persons nearest me, and the words of a stranger are ones with the weight of feathers on a breeze compared to those I actually trust.

[She can talk the talk at least- the conversation she'd had with the man had been annoying, but nothing that actually affected her greatly. Anything he said, she already knew herself.

The only people who could make her stop trusting someone close to her... Was that person themselves.]

[wardance]

[ he considers a moment, before giving a light nod finally. He sounds about as tired as he looks. Even the volume of his voice is steady and on the lower side. ]

I see. All right. My mistake, then. Sorry.

So long as you can watch out for yourself, then it is not a concern. Don't engage with him in concerns to me and you should be just fine.

[grunehexe]

Rest assured that I have no plans to engage that man, nor any man, in regards to you.

[So he can say he made a mistake with this one. Hah.]

[wardance]

That is good to hear.

Anyway, before I go I wanted to mention to you I've spent time thinking about what has happened between us and I can understand some of your point of view better as a result.

[grunehexe]

[She had been prepared to hang up, but- she settles back in her chair warily.]

... And what have you understood?

[wardance]

I understand why you are upset and that you feel wronged by someone going behind your back. I can see where your lack of trust stems from over it via your point of view and it is sensible to me. It was a little difficult to let go of my own point of view on the matter and embrace yours to see it better, but I managed enough to get something from it.

We view secrets and privacy differently. I am not yet sure if that is merely because you have never been exposed to situations that would force you to decide if exceptions should be made or not or if that is simply your final standing, but the fact remains I can't expect you to trust me according to what my definitions are and I need to adhere to yours.

[grunehexe]

... The fact that we view such things differently is abundantly clear to me now.

[A reply is slow in coming, mulling over what he said, jaw tight in order to try and keep her face stony and without indication of the turmoil she's felt. The pain of what she saw as a betrayal of trust, which were knives that wounded her that much deeply after... Well. No exaggeration, her entire world having been revealed to be an elaborate lie, the reminders of which she stepped upon each day.]

I'm interested to know your own definitions of such things, in your words, before I pass another judgement on the matter.

[The things he had said then, and now, hurt her. That didn't change, though.]

[wardance]

Of course... but perhaps another time. [ there is a small pause before he bows his head to stare down at the floor. ]

I'm sorry. I am not grounded mentally enough to stay calm through any and all discussions that could happen. I'm not interested in fighting with you further. The outcome... ... still matters to me, even if it will change nothing.

[grunehexe]

[... It's not the answer she expected. But it's not a terrible one. She's still so mad at him, and hurt, but the freshness of it has faded and she doesn't have the hysterics left in her either. She wants to be mad at him- part of her doesn't want to ever forgive him.

But the other part of her wants it to be like it was. Ignorance really was bliss, wasn't it. Bliss and death.]

Very well. I will await word from you when you are ready to discuss.

[wardance]

Right, right. Maybe in a few hours, then.

One day, you'll understand all of this, even if you ultimately do not agree with it. I can't force that any faster than you can yourself. Maybe I will be here when that day comes and you can tell me about it. Maybe I won't be, and we'll be worlds apart. Who knows. But, time is too short-- life is too short --for me to want to be in fights like this with people I care about. For you, who has lost a tenth of her years already, what will you find your life to be too short for?

I'm not looking for you to forgive me; but I'll be looking for you to see there's more to life than all or nothings.

[grunehexe]

[She was so angry with him, and she still hated that he said something to remind her they were of different worlds- that she or he might go home at any moment and then be without the other. Would she even remember him-]

Perhaps in a few hours, then.

Idk five hours later.

[wardance]

Okay, I feel better. We can talk about this if you still would like.

[ What did he even go do, he's half-dressed but not in a lounging type way. Rather he's missing his blue overcoat but has the light armor pieces under it still.

Anyway it doesn't look like he slept his mood off, that's for sure.